RONNIE(Getting really emo. You can choose not to read eh. Its long)
Have decided to write something about Mr Ronnie Soh MeiNa aka Monkey after reading his blog post.I feel so
sad.He is really someone who puts his effort for his friends, girlfriend, family and the others.
Its like, you dont realize something until an incident happens.
"i dun wan to see u cry, coz u are the 1 tat i lay my whole heart on.. wat i promise n said 2 years ago still remains the same as it is now till the end or till i die.."This really touched me alot. Lets talk about him first before talking about myself.
GOR, JiaYou.Charis, Ronnie's girlfriend is someone that i am very unsure of. She looks like the bubbily girl with that very cute rabbit teeth and the impression she gave me is like. "Wah, She ate Ronnie's food arh??" I mean the first impression, and i still dont really know her. But I realize she really got something that can make Ronnie love her to every bit. I am ENVIOUS, ok?
Ronnie is sad, its like when you push yourself to the furthest, you will start breaking down. Its tough to pretend you are strong all this while isnt it?
GOR, JiaYou.When I was in Perak, there was this monk that gave me some advice aka "suan ming". He took a look at my palm and told me various things.
Drink more water, stay away from spicy and sour food, be less stress cause its doing my neck and shoulder harm, solve my relationship prolems and lastly, my character is very strong and very soft at the same time was what he told me.
I started to give it a thinking after he told me. And I went
YEA... Strong and Soft.
I give everybody a very strong front. But I always find myself crying because of small little things. Yea, I am afraid of getting scolded, i am afraid of people leaving me, I am afraid of not getting the things i want. I cant hold my tears all the time. I want to so call tell others that I am very strong, I can protect myself, nothing can make me fall but its really tough to pretend to be nice and strong when you are really feeling sad.
I remembered when we was leaving Peiying's house at Perak, I really felt like crying afetr seeing Sally sobbed. Rachel saw me talking to myself. "
Bu Ke Yi Ku, Ku Le Jiu Bu Piao Liang Le"
(I wont be pretty after i cry). I keep repeating repeating. We took photos and left. I gave aunty a hug and started feeling terrible. When I was on WeiKang's car, I started crying like nobody business. I feel super super down. But still have to give myself a wash, told everyone i was alright and continue feeling sad on the coach.
TOUGH~Okay. Done with the crying part.
You know, I am really
jealous of Charis. She has somebody that loves even her fats. I understand Ronnie blames himself for not separating his time right but he has to settle that himself.
I want somebody who love my fats and love me for years too.
I want a guy that can put me in his chest and sayang me. I don need some one as good as Ranier. I just need an average guy thats why i rejected him. Hes too good for me, Hes tall, Hes rich, He looks not bad but is still too good for me.
I just want an average guy.Trust me, I can leave Ricky back in the past. I was only told that he hates WeiKang and is willing to patch back with me if given a chance. We once hurt each other, and i wanted to patch, just that he pushed me away.
That was the
past.Now that we will only treasure things when we are forced to give up.
Nothing is as good as people around us.
I will
LOVE everyone around me.
Sorry, Really Emo. Will Continue On Perak Soon.
